*Warning: This is going to be a rant. It's probably not going to be cohesive or grammatically correct. It's probably going to be offensive and have a lot of curse words. I realize that my posts are few and far between lately, and with the holidays approaching they should be more lighthearted and focused on the kids, but I'm mad as hell right now and I'm about to let loose. So. You've been warned.*
I don't know how anyone can call themselves an intelligent human being and believe in any god. There, I said it. I know I have friends who are religious. I know that they are intelligent. But I think that when it comes to the whole "god" thing, their brain is being affected by something that's making them stupid.
Obviously my comments are stemming from the recent tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut, where the lives of 26 people (20 OF THE CHILDREN) were cut short by a mentally ill person with guns.
I keep seeing posts of "angels being called home" and "god is hugging those babies now" or "prayers for the family". Seriously? Shut the fuck up. Shut up with that idiotic, pedantic, bullshit. There are no "angels", there is no "hugging" and what the fuck is praying going to do now? You think maybe if this Great and Powerful Oz, oops I mean, God, DID exist that he could have PREVENTED this disgusting event from happening? Maybe jam a gun? Maybe stall the car the shooter was driving? Better yet, maybe NOT let the shooter be mentally ill with access to an arsenal of weapons? But no, for some reason, the religious will rationalize that "Satan" was at work. Really? Well then this would logically mean that "God" is weaker than "Satan". Or that they're working together? Or that they're one in the same. Or better yet, THEY"RE BOTH NOT FUCKING REAL!
How come "God" is always there when Bubba wins the lottery or when Cletus wins on the Price is Right, but strangely absent say, when a fucking psycho shoots up a school? When children are hacked to pieces with machetes for "being witches"? When terrorists fly planes into buildings? Oh wait, "God" WAS there on September 11th, except his name was "Allah" and he was granting the wishes of Mohammed Atta, Osama Bin Laden, and the other 12 terrorists.
Don't even get me started on the fucking asshats who are blaming this tragedy on the fact that "God" was "removed from school". Again, shut the fuck up. Shut your idiotic piece of shit mouth. You're in the same group of assholes that is now going to blame "teh gayz" for this tragedy. You're a Westboro Baptist fuckface without the sign.
And now I'm reading all these news pieces about church vigils and prayer rallies. Really? FUCKING REALLY?!?! You're going to go to CHURCH and pray to your little sky friend, AFTER he allowed this thing to happen. You're going to subjugate yourself to this (and I'm speaking as though "god" were real) misogynistic, baby killing, genocidal, slave endorsing, egomaniac, who gets his rocks off on killing kids (for the Bible tells me so!) and then you're going to look to "him" for answers. Are you fucking mental?!?!?!
So let's approach it from this angle. Either "God" is real or he isn't. Simple. BUT! If he is real, then one must concede that he allows murder, rape, disease, cruelty, injustice, and all these horrible things. If he doesn't exist (the more reasonable option), then one can be satisfied in the knowledge that LIFE is unfair, that human beings can really be horrible to each other, and that this fraction of a second we have on this planet is fleeting, unstable, but also worth a million trillion zillion lifetimes.
"But Alessia, God gave us free will! He can't step in!". Oh really? So he can't step in when children are being murdered, but he CAN step in when you get a promotion at work? He can't step in when a woman is being raped but CAN step in when Extreme Makeover renovates your house? And speaking of the woman being raped, WHOSE "free will" is being exercised here? The rapist?
Oh and I LOVE the idiots on the message boards blaming atheists for this tragedy. According to one genius on HuffPo, responding to my comment about being confused as to why people flock to church, I have no capacity for love and compassion and I have no concept of helping others because I don't go to church. Yep, absolutely right (eye roll). I *totally* need to go to church to know what love and compassion are. That love and compassion sure overflows for gays and lesbians, for nontheists, and the like. Going to church to learn about love and compassion is like going to a fucking steakhouse for a vegan meal.
In the days following this tragedy we are going to face a barrage of images of fresh-faced children whose lives ended violently and tragically. We are going to see images of distraught parents whose own lives, in a sense, ended yesterday. And I'm going to have to listen to the same bullshit over and over again about "god bless them" and "prayers for them". I'm going to have to have some asshole of a parent in an interview on TV claim that "by the grace of god", THEIR CHILD SURVIVED. That, by far, is the most disgusting thing anyone can say. "God" saved your kid but not the others. How nice for you, you smug piece of shit. What kind of bullshit self-rationalization is that? Your kid lived because "god" loved him more? Because you prayed harder? Because that kid talked back to his mom?
I was sobbing yesterday but today I am mad as hell. I'm pissed that a mentally ill person had access to weapons. I'm pissed that this person thought it necessary to kill anyone. Just kill yourself and be done with it, why take out a school? I am mad as hell that people look to the sky for answers instead of focusing on REAL solutions to REAL problems. The mental health system failed this man. It failed and continues to fail on so many levels. We have soldiers who fight for this country coming home and murder-suiciding their entire families because they're not getting the care they deserve. We have disgruntled workers shooting up malls because they got laid off.
Let's ignore all that and pray for answers. Yes, let's just do that.