I came across this news story the other day while searching CNN.com to find out if Rush Limbaugh was dead yet.
In, essence. A little boy and his mother were a some sort of midnight mass celebration at their church and out of nowhere a bullet pierced her son’s chest, he screamed, lost consciousness and died. Wow. Seriously? I thought “god” was supposed to be a “loving and forgiving god”. At least, that’s what the bible thumpers tell me when I say I don’t believe in it. Is this the same “god” that would let a little baby be born with AIDS? Or addicted to crack? Or with its heart outside of its chest? That “god”? Or is this the same “god” that commanded Abraham to kill his son Isaac as proof of how devoted he was to him? The same “god” that allowed Lot to offer up his daughters as sexual slaves and then lets him get drunk and impregnate them? Or is this the same “god” that won’t heal amputees? Or the same one that lets good people fester and die from diseases like Cancer, Lymphoma, Parkinson’s Disease, and such?
I’m just wondering. Really I am. I am wondering how anyone could actually believe that if there is some sort of omnipotent cloud fairy up in the sky, pulling the strings, how could he possibly think it is ok to let a 4 year old get shot in the fucking chest and die in his mother’s arms? And I don’t want to hear any of the “oh it was his time” crap or “god works in mysterious ways” or “an angel needed to be called home”. Fuck that bullshit. A child is DEAD because of human idiocy. If indeed there is a puppet master, how about ending the suffering of the mother and bringing the child back to life? How about eradicating famine, and poverty, and genocide? No, no. Don’t tell me. It’s that great loophole to explain it all: Free Will. “God” gave us all free will and he doesn’t interfere because that would be baaaaad.
Sorry, but doesn’t he do a shitload of interfering in the bible? Especially when he doesn’t get its way and behaves likes a spoiled brat? “I’m going to kill all these people because they don’t worship me properly”, or “I don’t like how things are being run in Sodom and Gomorrah. To much focusing on happiness and enjoyment and not enough kissing my ass.”
The most disgusting part of all of this are those who think this little boy is floating about somewhere in the sky with wings and a harp. Are you kidding me? Does the loss of a child not make this woman sit back and say, “Hang on a sec. My son was an innocent little boy he was killed in a horrible freak accident. There is no way that this “god” that I’ve been kowtowing to my whole life is real”. For me, that’s the biggest mindfuck of all. Your kid is dead. Shot in a church nonetheless, and yet, you’re still going to sing “his” praises next Sunday, and have some priest do a blessing over his coffin at his funeral. Really? REALLY?
I know what you’re saying. “Alessia, you’re just angry with “god” and that’s why you don’t believe in him. You blame “god” for all the bad things in the world.” Um, not quite. Human beings are to blame for bad things in the world. Human beings and that wonderful thing I like to call “chance”. It’s all a crap shoot. Look at the people who for some reason or another did not get to work on time on 9/11 and thus were spared from being turned into dust. Sure, the believers will sit there and say things like “God was looking out for them” or “God spared them”. But here’s the question, what about the other 3000 people who died? What about them? Did “god” suddenly have to step out and check the mail? Were they just not worthy enough in his eyes to have a full life? Where was “god” when the jumpers took to the skies to escape the burning holocaust inside? Could he at least given them a net? Maybe let them sprout wings so they didn’t turn to soup as they hit the ground?
As a matter of fact? Which “god” was working on 9/11? If you were to ask Al-Qaeda and Osama bin Laden, “god” did a great job that day. He fulfilled all of their wishes. He answered their prayers and helped them carry out their plan. Is god a flip-flopper? Does he say, “Today, I’m going to help terrorists blow up buildings, but tomorrow I’m going to let a good Christian sniper off an abortion doctor”. Help me out here, because I don’t get it.
I know, I know, it’s another “Angry Atheist” post from Alessia, but honestly, can anyone not tell me that they don’t ask themselves these questions from time to time? Or is faith really that blind that it just accepts everything as “god’s will” and moves on? I know that it is important to be tolerant of all different beliefs and I understand that most, if not all, of the people I surround myself with are religious and that my rantings may offend them, but I can’t help but to express my frustration and confusion as to the reasoning and the “logic” that goes with this whole “god” business. Carl Sagan said, “Life is but a momentary glimpse of the wonder of this astonishing universe, and it is sad to see so many dreaming it away on spiritual fantasy.” The death of this little boy is a testament as to how fragile our lives are. The chances of you becoming a you and a me becoming me are so miniscule, that it is a privilege to even be here as part of the Universe.
I’ve run out of steam. I don’t know how to end this. Possibly because I’ve got Sid the Science Kid in the background and a 3 year old asking me if he can have hot dogs for breakfast. So I don’t know how to finish up this New Year’s tirade. If I’ve made you think, good. If I’ve pissed you off, sorry, but you know I don’t mince words. If you don’t care either way, that’s fine too. Now go have a nice day in the minute we are allotted here in the Universe.